So then here we are. The new habits I’ve been half trying some have been completely successful, like reading the bible every day and drinking more water. Some have been half successful e.g. Increasing my fruit and veg intake others not successful at all. In fact in 2 or 3 weeks I’ve only been to the gym 3 times and haven’t ran at all!!!
So what position have I got too?
I have established gut / belly doesn’t seem to be just bloating although some days it is clear it’s a contributing factor. I have discovered a rather crucial fact about myself that I’m rather ashamed of and that is how my self discipline / will power is none existent!
I have never been more than 8.5 stone until a year or so ago then never more than 9.5. I’ve always been an 8 due to a high metabolism.
Don’t get me wrong this is not far or thin this is not 8 vs 12 or 16. This is about health and well being as much as the belly I’ve developed and extra half a stone I’ve suddenly found.
I popped on the Internet the other week after months of whinging and half hearted attempts, I decided drastic action was needed.
I ordered a free trial of raspberry ketone and vita cleanse colon detox. Within 15 minutes half of my office were telling me about the scam and how it had featured on watchdog. They are auto enrol and so if the trial isn’t cancelled and returned within 14 days huge amounts of money are taken from your bank. I have rectified that as best I could although the courier to deliver the pills seems to come when I’m at work so I’m praying the arrive in the 14 days while my amazing bank First Direct help me out with the financial dispute side of things.
Anyway I’ve been left embarrassed at myself and angry. I’ve been reading a book called The Resilient Life by Gordon MacDonald and it had a chapter about discipline. I am lazy and undisciplined in this aspect of my life.
I know the best way to get rid of a bad habit is to create a good one, I know it takes 21 days to start a new habit.
How did I let myself change this much without doing something before? How did I get to the point where I was eating vitamin tablets recommended by a nutritionalist at the same time as devouring endless sweets. At the point I was desperate enough to consider veganism and then because I could t face it silly enough to order weight loss pills over the Internet???
The answer: I don’t even know
It’s likely the age old tale of a moment on the lips a lifetime on the hips. A few people have explained it may just be my age (I hit 35 in October). Maybe it’s been gradual so I didn’t notice.
I’ve tried to deal with unwell / crappy feelings with some of my new habits and the visit to the nutritionalist. But now we are here!!!
I’m looking at a Holland and Barrett bag containing raspberry ketones and an aloe Vera Colin cleanse and next to it, the contradictory evidence that would say I can’t care that much but definitely says I’m lacking in self discipline – yea on the seat with my Holland and Barrett bag is my McDonalds bag.
I heard somewhere possibly from Dr Robi Sonderegger maybe about habits or addictions about going to an extreme aiming far far one way when you’ve been far the other way allows you to land in the middle.
I don’t want extreme in terms of the Forks Over Knives or cabbage soup diet or Dr Oz ten day detox BUT…
I do think to break this habit / cycle to eat healthier and also to loose weight and get my shape back I need to aim for extreme for a while.
So as it’s likely going to be trial and error and maybe for an amount of accountability I thought I would blog my journey to health!!!